Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Continued from Tick Tock.

I have been thinking for quite many months before I made the BIG decision. Actually it came quite naturally, or maybe I should say, Allah has another plan for me. It started with the maid issue. I thought we were gonna have a replacement maid after AIdil Fitri last year but heck, it wasn't easy, we (myself & my agent) were duped by Indonesian agents. The whole story can make up a book by itself. So, I was totally turned off by the idea. Next came another issue that is my other half has taken up another role, like his old role, that is a regional position and therefore he has to make trips which means he has to leave me with this 2 kiddos on my own. *scratch head*. If that's not enough, we also have some family issue and Nael is starting primary One, so who's gonna take good care of them? The only appropriate solution for this time is that I have to make yet again another sacrifice that is quiting my job.

Personally, I was very nervous, nervous on how to tell my parents. You see, I have been giving them some moolah since I started work, in a way we 3 children have been supporting them, ensuring they get to experience what they could not afford when they were young. So, the feeling of not able to contribute and the feelings of what my brother and sister would say, too much to shoulder at times. When I 1st broke the news, there was dissappointment from all :( the last few months I have been trying to tell them, that we will do ok and there are plans for the financial side, it's like submitting financial proposal to board of directors :P In all, they didn't say much, looks like my parents have beginning to accept my reason to leave my job and some plans we have in future.

When my other half asked me "how do you feel that today Monday is your last Monday at work" I told him that I wasn't really thinking of my days left in office, I'm more a nervous wreck on how I will spend my time. You see, I had made a pact in me that I would do this, this, and this and I know Allah is watching and we are answerable to every little time we spend on this world. Therefore I just pray that I would be discipline enough and follow my new schedule.

Sometimes I asked myelf, will I miss not working? I think I would! I love working, having a job, having moolah and having that moolah to please a lot of people but I could not stand my current job, too boring. At this moment, I want to forget about it and embrace a new title, wearing a new hat, the job is the highest paying job in the world and the return is immeasurable! I will be a SAHM :) , where the 'execitement' begins and never ends :p

SAHM out there, give me some words of advice, be it good or bad, I do appreciate it very much. Wish me luck my dear friends and I hope this have answered why I have had so many free lunches this month tsk tsk tsk...


famyGirl said...

welcome to the club :P i nak bagi advice tapi with Nuaym around my routines/schedules dah jadi chaotic :)

أم الليث said...

all the best!!
takpe la..duit boleh dicari.

contentment and satisfaction not that easy to find!

butterflutter said...

Happy for you. We can only plan & pray. Semoga dipermudahkan. Enjoy your SAHM title dear.

zan said...

FG : takper next time when we meet, we can chat more :)

Aliya : yep yep, that's what I always tell myself "duit boleh dicari" This is something that I would love to do for the kids for the sake of Allah, insyallah.

BF : Thanks dear :)

Nina Zan said...

wah wah! I just read abt your status! wah wah! good for you. The boys happy tak? wah wah.

May Allah permudahkan.

wah wah!

Lollies said...


Insya Allah you already starts off with the right track. That is, you want this. That is happiness already. And the hijrah when it is done for the sake of Allah will be rewarded immensely.

Fill your time with things that everyone claims they want to do but cannot because of working. There is just so much way to improve oneself. In no time, you will find yourself busy sampai tak cukup tangan.


Lazydaisy said...

congrats on your new adventure..
i wish my turn would come too tapi tak tau la bile tu..

zan said...

che na : d boys happy sgt esp the small one, siap ckp "aidan SUKAAAA sgt ummi tak pergi work" :P

lollies : i will do as much as i could for the things that i hv missed out masa kerja dulu, i'm still looking for the right schedule and so on to fit everyone's time and may Allah bless us all mother with good health and energy to carry the tasks, amin! thanks babe for d advice.

LD : no worries, dua byk2, insyallah the time will come.

Joe.Jaffar said...

seronoknya dapat dok kat rumah tiap hari